Big Mumble!

It was being so long I'm not here, due to my new busy life. But it was a very satisfying life I ever get because I'm starting to realize that I can do anything, everything that people might think I could not do. And the best thing is I was at the right path and it make me feel so much better than what I ever think..

Talking about new found career, I think every people deserve getting their own career even when people think it was too late. It was NEVER too late to build a career. All that we need is a strong will to learn and follow our heart of what we really want to do. There is no one can show us the path to us.. only you the one can choose it.

Anyway, maybe I should thank the people that look down on me, and say ON YOUR FACE!... I do have a career, I do have a life, don't suck in my life again. OK?! Oh yea... Wish you good life too...

Oh, I'm now working in hospitality industry as a pastry chef (well almost, it's near), try little harder and i can get what I wish...

Maybe next time I will tell why i choose hospitality industry especially F&B (that's food and beverage dear). Have to go now..

Horrible Pretty Things :(

Browsing my favourite website YouTube.. Look what I found.. O.o




What? Why you teaching us there is 7 days in a week? Are you crazy? And yeah, you just 13 dear, you should thinking bout study.. not partying.. :(

and then...



What is wrong with this girl?... Is girl nowaday meant to be mean? I wonder if guy do the same to the girl that way. Oh its ok.. boy love mean girls. Just like The Maine songs 'Girls do what they want' http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fx_37zUoR1I :(



Oh come on!!! Mandy Moore pop-ish song Crush http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=exR93bnG2G4 better than this!:(

another...



So wrong for underage teens! I believe the singer is no more than age 13! Did anyone dance while reading the pass-up letter that being caught up by teacher with smiling face? :(

i feel bit ok...



Oh ok, I wont argue about this one. I think this one is A OK. Good for lighting up party mood... :)


Dear Ark Music Factory, please give an attention not exploiting pretty, young, smart ladies like this. You just giving bad exposure to them. And yeah all young ladies, come on... there is better songs that you can sing than those all crap. Music is awesome, dont make your talent cheap!

Blogthing Drama

Uh Yea.. I'm so damn shock with my BlogThings results... :D

Your Career Personality: Empathetic, Loyal, and People-Oriented

Your Ideal Careers: Chef Corporate trainer Designer Events Coordinator Librarian Politician Psychologist Small Business Owner Social Worker Teacher

The Quick and Dirty Career Test

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

I think I know where my path now and I am in the right track. And I wish everybody try to understand me. I just want to have a career that make me living in no regret later. That is my decision and wishing everyone to respect it... dont make me spat bad words to you...

I want to live my own life... and thats mean I must try not to ask any help and rely to anyone else anymore... even asking opinions :(

* It's 3.30 at the morning*

Hmm

No, I'm not having any paranormal investigation right now. It just my crazy insomnia suddenly come and make me have a very suffering night... Huu :(

Anyway~~

Thanks to all who make me being insomniac.. I could not thank you enough for screwing my life and thinking that I should be letdown and you there having fun with your fuckin' happy life..

Are You Happy Now?

Oh yea.. i guess you are happy, making me such a victim.. Thank you once again...

And you know what? everything happen in life for you is actually you the one whodunnit

that is why...

*You keep getting bad luck

*you keep getting bad guy that act like saint

*You keep getting being leave by your friends

*You think that you a victim, oh no you the venom

Go on with your positive thinking, it bring nothing because your intention is hurting people around you..

Oh? Did I say this to myself?... Nah.. I'm saying this to people who really make a good achievement of making me insomniac..

Say that I'm Drama Queen... no I'm not, I just want a life. ok!! I'm done giving a sympathy.. while being treat like garbage...

Have a good 'sleep' and 'life'

Don't worry i'm not so stupid enough to bugging your life anymore.

and oh thanks for everything... I do appreciate it more than all of you appreciate me. :(

On the Run..

I guess this year, I got few projects that kinda artsy and more gets in my emotion. As i was thinking to pursue back my writing passion... Hmm, i might not get a lot of idea yet but I do like to have one, or two maybe three of my masterpiece this year.

I just want to finish my never-be-finish work. Because I want to have something that remind of me at the old day that I am a damn talented young woman..(wow, thats bold). And yea, writing is my passion. It channels a lot of of my emotion and bearing my heart and soul than talking and writing in this blog... And I wish I can improve my skills because i think this could never be waste. This is my medium of creativity... the only thing that can make me calm and set me free to my created reality. Hmm...

On the line, I was thinking to set my new blog project (still on planning), finishing We Meet In Winter ( I must finishing this) and yea The Lane Vol 2 (my collection of poem).. Woo Hoo.. I got lots of things in my hand... I wish myself good luck.. haha..

Just wishing that I can make it this time.. :)

Oh brain, please working out like this...

Give me a space to breath!!! Come on!!

I am got nothing to do with what they do

I am supporting them, be REAL friends but they make me sad...

Awesome 'FRIEND', just let me taste my own sweat, blood and tears for once!

Go on having your sweet life, I never thought you turn to be like this

Never in my own life

:(

My Mumble

There was a time, you getting so hard handling your feeling. It was the time when you cling to that certain loss feeling you feel hurt, when you just let it you feel hurt, and when you try to forget it, the pain struck you 1000 times than you could never imagine?

I know that letting go does not mean i'm lose, it is just another way of winning but without the taste of it... but it was so hard to let go the best thing I ever had in my own life... The feeling of being loved and loving back... I think I could never feel it once again, the feeling be in cloud 9, even sometimes tears being a good friends. It is a sacrifice of wanting to be loved, let the tears fall...

I just wish there is a DELETE button in this life... so I can erase this and living a new life without being afraid to fall again... hmm :'(