I want to rise like sunshine

That is how I want my life now. I guess lately i'm so in a cloudy moods and everything is so upside down to me. Sometimes I just want to pull out the plug and let myself down under. And let it go away, but then i remember what I say to my 'college family'

When You Fall, Rise Again Like A Sunrise

That's make me realize, what is the point I give such an advice but I'm not try to following it? Why am I want to let go life that maybe will bring other luck to me? But I have to admit that I am so weak lately. Maybe most of my energy is being taken while i'm thinking about how am I going to lead my life without someone that make me feel loved? That make me tame, and make me become what I am. It was pretty painful. Even to someone who love being depressed like me.

I think the time is come for me rising like a sunrise again. I love sunrise, just like I love sunflower. I just want to lead my life again... Maybe not like before as the damage already done. But just hope I can manage to have a life I always wanted

Wise Words : Letting go did not mean you lose, it just another way to win without a taste of winning...

Just passing by my favourite site, Blogthing. Yea I do love taking quiz just for fun. Just try to finding out if it can help me a lot or not. And have to admit, most of it helping me.

So now, I was thinking maybe once in a while, I can put in my Blogthing quiz result here and give a talk about it? Maybe giving me a good theraphy and lots more idea to come? I wish...

I just taking this test Are You Sunrise Or Sunset? And the result for me is sunset. That might not very surprising for me as I am a sunset lover? And totally a sunset is a pretty good view of the day.And i think that make me a great sunset person? Hmm andI think most of the description is right except for friendly and outgoing part, i'm not so like that except i know people for a long time... :). enjoy the result though...

You Are Sunset

You are friendly, outgoing, and easily distracted. It takes you a while to get going during the day. What you lack in productivity you may up for in imagination. You are very creative. You are a natural rebel, and you don't like following anyone else's rules. You are successful on your own terms. Many find you to be an inspiration.

Are You Sunrise or Sunset?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

Life is A...

Life is a tragic comedy. We fall apart so hard at the tragedy but by the end of the day, we start laugh about it like it was just a joke that tickle us and then start forgetting about it. and without realizing much, we make the same mistake again. Fall back to tragedy, laugh about it, forget and make same mistake. Cannot break the cycle, even if could it can come back to us.

And when life is being compare to tragic comedy, problem is just same as circus. Once you get in , its the end of your happy world. and you cannot get out of it. Even if you manage to get out, you will stick to it and follow you like an extra shadow.

But I guess this tragic comedy and circus is really the one that make us growing up better as a person. Without it, there is no point of crying while being mess up, no madness happen when being angry... Hmm and yea i think lately my life is really like in a big circus with all things that want to crash me, crashing me with no regret. If only I can can get out of this circus.... :(

Lost in my own tears again. Loneliness is getting me and sadness grow. This heart starting cold once more. There is no way turning back to the warmth that make me as me. I try to sleep the loneliness but I keep broken down. Wishing all back again. Warming me. Taking me. I just keep lost in my tears. I don't know when will this warmth coming back to me. If only there was a way to turn back everything around. If it just there is a way, I want it to be back as before. When the dream is real and reality is a dream....