It was being so long I'm not here, due to my new busy life. But it was a very satisfying life I ever get because I'm starting to realize that I can do anything, everything that people might think I could not do. And the best thing is I was at the right path and it make me feel so much better than what I ever think..
Talking about new found career, I think every people deserve getting their own career even when people think it was too late. It was NEVER too late to build a career. All that we need is a strong will to learn and follow our heart of what we really want to do. There is no one can show us the path to us.. only you the one can choose it.
Anyway, maybe I should thank the people that look down on me, and say ON YOUR FACE!... I do have a career, I do have a life, don't suck in my life again. OK?! Oh yea... Wish you good life too...
Oh, I'm now working in hospitality industry as a pastry chef (well almost, it's near), try little harder and i can get what I wish...
Maybe next time I will tell why i choose hospitality industry especially F&B (that's food and beverage dear). Have to go now..
Browsing my favourite website YouTube.. Look what I found.. O.o
What? Why you teaching us there is 7 days in a week? Are you crazy? And yeah, you just 13 dear, you should thinking bout study.. not partying.. :(
and then...
What is wrong with this girl?... Is girl nowaday meant to be mean? I wonder if guy do the same to the girl that way. Oh its ok.. boy love mean girls. Just like The Maine songs 'Girls do what they want' http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fx_37zUoR1I :(
Oh come on!!! Mandy Moore pop-ish song Crush http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=exR93bnG2G4 better than this!:(
another...
So wrong for underage teens! I believe the singer is no more than age 13! Did anyone dance while reading the pass-up letter that being caught up by teacher with smiling face? :(
i feel bit ok...
Oh ok, I wont argue about this one. I think this one is A OK. Good for lighting up party mood... :)
Dear Ark Music Factory, please give an attention not exploiting pretty, young, smart ladies like this. You just giving bad exposure to them. And yeah all young ladies, come on... there is better songs that you can sing than those all crap. Music is awesome, dont make your talent cheap!
I think I know where my path now and I am in the right track. And I wish everybody try to understand me. I just want to have a career that make me living in no regret later. That is my decision and wishing everyone to respect it... dont make me spat bad words to you...
I want to live my own life... and thats mean I must try not to ask any help and rely to anyone else anymore... even asking opinions :(
No, I'm not having any paranormal investigation right now. It just my crazy insomnia suddenly come and make me have a very suffering night... Huu :(
Anyway~~
Thanks to all who make me being insomniac.. I could not thank you enough for screwing my life and thinking that I should be letdown and you there having fun with your fuckin' happy life..
Are You Happy Now?
Oh yea.. i guess you are happy, making me such a victim.. Thank you once again...
And you know what? everything happen in life for you is actually you the one whodunnit
that is why...
*You keep getting bad luck
*you keep getting bad guy that act like saint
*You keep getting being leave by your friends
*You think that you a victim, oh no you the venom
Go on with your positive thinking, it bring nothing because your intention is hurting people around you..
Oh? Did I say this to myself?... Nah.. I'm saying this to people who really make a good achievement of making me insomniac..
Say that I'm Drama Queen... no I'm not, I just want a life. ok!! I'm done giving a sympathy.. while being treat like garbage...
Have a good 'sleep' and 'life'
Don't worry i'm not so stupid enough to bugging your life anymore.
and oh thanks for everything... I do appreciate it more than all of you appreciate me. :(
I guess this year, I got few projects that kinda artsy and more gets in my emotion. As i was thinking to pursue back my writing passion... Hmm, i might not get a lot of idea yet but I do like to have one, or two maybe three of my masterpiece this year.
I just want to finish my never-be-finish work. Because I want to have something that remind of me at the old day that I am a damn talented young woman..(wow, thats bold). And yea, writing is my passion. It channels a lot of of my emotion and bearing my heart and soul than talking and writing in this blog... And I wish I can improve my skills because i think this could never be waste. This is my medium of creativity... the only thing that can make me calm and set me free to my created reality. Hmm...
On the line, I was thinking to set my new blog project (still on planning), finishing We Meet In Winter ( I must finishing this) and yea The Lane Vol 2 (my collection of poem).. Woo Hoo.. I got lots of things in my hand... I wish myself good luck.. haha..
There was a time, you getting so hard handling your feeling. It was the time when you cling to that certain loss feeling you feel hurt, when you just let it you feel hurt, and when you try to forget it, the pain struck you 1000 times than you could never imagine?
I know that letting go does not mean i'm lose, it is just another way of winning but without the taste of it... but it was so hard to let go the best thing I ever had in my own life... The feeling of being loved and loving back... I think I could never feel it once again, the feeling be in cloud 9, even sometimes tears being a good friends. It is a sacrifice of wanting to be loved, let the tears fall...
I just wish there is a DELETE button in this life... so I can erase this and living a new life without being afraid to fall again... hmm :'(
Finally I'm watching The Green Hornet! And it was in 2D! It is a good movie and yea don't worry I didn't drool my saliva when looking at Jay Chou (I swear, I didn't). And he was good in this movie, oh now I forget that he is the actor too but in chinese movie. But this is Hollywood movie, oh no! Don't let me keep talking about Jay Chou.
But I must admit that this movie is so awesome and quiet funny, beside this movie is not about the superhero that have a superpower. It is more like ordinary person becoming a superhero in crazy way. Just the way I like it.
I think there will be 2nd The Green Hornet and yea i'm up to watch it again. As long Jay Chou in it (ha! got me!) ;P
I think it being along time I haven't watch a good movie, the last good movie that I watch is Date Night which is simply hilarious and make me just going crazy because the humor is so fresh. It making me laugh for nearly a week, and watch it once again. not so many movie can get me laugh so much.
And yeah, lately I start watching movie again but most of it is ust to fill my time out. But there is one movie that I so wanted to watch this year. The Green Hornet, the one with Jay Chou in it. And it already out, but it was in 3D. I do want to watch it but not in 3D. The ticket is skyrocketing expensive and I don't think that I can handle the 3D yet. So I'm going to wait for the non 3D one.
By the way this is the trailer of The Green Hornet... aww I want to watch it badly :(
And this is the list of a movie that I want to watch this year
#1. Green Lantern - Ohh Ryan Reynold... yea I know green again? maybe this year green will rule...but hey I still stick with my policy. Don't wear green lenses (huh?)
#2. Rango - Gee, this is the first time i will watch Johnny Depp in cartoon and he will be the lizard. Eww in the real world. adorable in the movie. Must Watch.
#3. Pirates of the Caribbean:On Stranger Tides - Another installment of pirates? Oh ok, seem to be little old but hey as long Johnny Depp in it. I go for it ;)
#4. X-Men: First Class - Yeah, X-Men spin-off, about Prof X and Magneto. The beginning of everything. Can't wait!
#5. Red Riding Hood - Oh those fairy tale stories. But hey, I think this is not the innocent one. Maybe will full of blood and full of skin? Seeing Amanda Seyfried in this after her unforgettable role in Jennifer's Body? Yeah, I wanna watch her.
#6. Transformer 3: Dark of the Moon: Another Transformer? but I heard there will be no more Megan Fox in it. Lets see if this work out, especially to guys. I think this is definitely for the die-hard fans of transformer.. hmm..
#7. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow prt 2 - Hmm, who didn't watch Harry Potter?
#8. Twilight: Breaking Dawn-Ok, not so much crazy about it. As I am still craving to read the book. But since I love to be moppy for once. Gimme a chance to be with raging-hormone girls who go gaga over Edward and Jacob.
#9. Alvin and the Chipmunk 3 - Aww, that adorable squirrels. Will going have some fun with them. ;)
#10. The Smurf- Haha... oh ok Ha ha.. that blue dwarf. What the hell am I thinking?
Ok there is lots of good movie this year that I guarantee will make all the movie-goer be crazy to what which one first. And even to rate and do review about it. and that Top 10? No, its not being think over, it just a list that I think of 5, it is going out till 10. So I guess that is all fo Movie Blab which is kinda good to share. Watch Your Movie (ok I don't know why I say that)
p/s : I thought there will be ThunderCat movies.. (sob)
That is how I want my life now. I guess lately i'm so in a cloudy moods and everything is so upside down to me. Sometimes I just want to pull out the plug and let myself down under. And let it go away, but then i remember what I say to my 'college family'
When You Fall, Rise Again Like A Sunrise
That's make me realize, what is the point I give such an advice but I'm not try to following it? Why am I want to let go life that maybe will bring other luck to me? But I have to admit that I am so weak lately. Maybe most of my energy is being taken while i'm thinking about how am I going to lead my life without someone that make me feel loved? That make me tame, and make me become what I am. It was pretty painful. Even to someone who love being depressed like me.
I think the time is come for me rising like a sunrise again. I love sunrise, just like I love sunflower. I just want to lead my life again... Maybe not like before as the damage already done. But just hope I can manage to have a life I always wanted
Wise Words : Letting go did not mean you lose, it just another way to win without a taste of winning...
Just passing by my favourite site, Blogthing. Yea I do love taking quiz just for fun. Just try to finding out if it can help me a lot or not. And have to admit, most of it helping me.
So now, I was thinking maybe once in a while, I can put in my Blogthing quiz result here and give a talk about it? Maybe giving me a good theraphy and lots more idea to come? I wish...
I just taking this test Are You Sunrise Or Sunset? And the result for me is sunset. That might not very surprising for me as I am a sunset lover? And totally a sunset is a pretty good view of the day.And i think that make me a great sunset person? Hmm andI think most of the description is right except for friendly and outgoing part, i'm not so like that except i know people for a long time... :). enjoy the result though...
Life is a tragic comedy. We fall apart so hard at the tragedy but by the end of the day, we start laugh about it like it was just a joke that tickle us and then start forgetting about it. and without realizing much, we make the same mistake again. Fall back to tragedy, laugh about it, forget and make same mistake. Cannot break the cycle, even if could it can come back to us.
And when life is being compare to tragic comedy, problem is just same as circus. Once you get in , its the end of your happy world. and you cannot get out of it. Even if you manage to get out, you will stick to it and follow you like an extra shadow.
But I guess this tragic comedy and circus is really the one that make us growing up better as a person. Without it, there is no point of crying while being mess up, no madness happen when being angry... Hmm and yea i think lately my life is really like in a big circus with all things that want to crash me, crashing me with no regret. If only I can can get out of this circus.... :(
Lost in my own tears again. Loneliness is getting me and sadness grow. This heart starting cold once more. There is no way turning back to the warmth that make me as me. I try to sleep the loneliness but I keep broken down. Wishing all back again. Warming me. Taking me. I just keep lost in my tears. I don't know when will this warmth coming back to me. If only there was a way to turn back everything around. If it just there is a way, I want it to be back as before. When the dream is real and reality is a dream....
