2010 Part 2

2010, it was an unbelieveable year to me. Too many being learn in a year. There is a things that make me laugh, cry, smile, hurt, bad, good... But beside severe depression things can turn out well even not the way that I like.

The good things is I learn to love someone which I feel so on top of the world... This is the feeling that I am longing want to get fill and now I get it. And the other good things that make me think i'm going to proud to myself is finally i can feel the experience of being working people and I found out its good but still I feel so boring with it. I think the only work that I like to is self-working that I think bring more satisfaction than everything I can think of. So I decide to self-working and watch money grow by my own hand. And yea, i start love seeing the money grow.

The opposite of good is bad huh? Hmm as i am so excited having a new life as a lover, I didnt realize that heart matter is not as easy as it look. Sometimes its good, sometimes it hurt, sometimes it make me look worst. I think this year, my dam of tears keep broken. But I take it as therapy.. maybe... Yea I think in this year, this is the only things that make me feeling that I was in a circus.... I think I am the sword swallow girl...

What is the things that I hope in 2011? I guess i will make a break and leave the mark. I want 2011 the year for me. I want to get the little taste of achievement which I think not so far to reach but not so close to get a grab of it. Just that... I don't like to dream too much..

Sayonara 2010....

2010 Part 1

There is many things happen this year, the good, the bad. I guess 2010 is kinda a long year to me, even some say that the time is passed so fast like an eye blinking. It is a long year, especially when you facing so many thing that make you think that you living in the circus... Some say, once you in the circus, you could never get out of it... huh...

I just learn that life is not so easy but still can be manage, and for some reason too life can be manage-able but not heart matter. as i growing up i realize there is many things to come for us. Either it was an exciting things or make me feeling down things.

This year really making me growing up and make me realize there is more that i didn't do, there is more things that I must get through for me to say in next few years to come that I Live This Life! And making me realize that I must try to live out this life like what i wanted.

I learn to work, i learn to love, i learn to friends, I learn everything that I think I miss out in my life before. It was bring good experience, it was bring bad experience, everything. This year is totally an eye opener to me.

In other part, might tell about what things happen to me this year. and why it was an eye-opener to me. I wish someone will read my blog.

Sorry Myself (Duh!)

It is being so long time not writing in here, and in few days 2010 will come to the end. I think this year is like a roller coaster ride that keep throw me to bottom... Well, maybe life is like a roller coaster or circus(?)

Hmm i know i have not give much entry in My Piece...Of Mind. I think I should apologize to myself because i didn't put much time in here (and I hate writer's block that hitting me to bottom). I wish I can put my thought here often but yea with my busy-ness and this crazy writer's block make me leaving this blog empty.

Maybe there will be change next year? Yea I guess so... just hoping that there will be more to share next year. But before the year end I think its good to share all those crazy roller coaster of life that I through this year. Sharing is good right?( but not too much right)

See you before this years end, hope there will be nothing like the crazy stupid communication interruption that can drive a blogger crazy...

Muahxx(what the hell I'm doing?)

EarCandy#31

I am so in the mood of in love and being loved... so I want to dedicate this one to my Mi Amor with all my thought and love for him.... :)


Sixpence none the richer-Kiss Me

I know, I do feel down a few day ago... But matter of heart is always like a weather, easily change and there will the a season to accompany those weather and thats make me realize that love is not always so sunny day like summer, but there will be cold day like winter too. a things that i should learn now.

That's all, hmm Mi Amor... Kiss Me... :)

Letter To You ... Mi Amor

Sometimes I wish you were single when we met,
i really wish i didn't tell you my feeling for you when you still with her,
You don't know how I wish I was her,
I do wish that every word that you posted on her page was mine...
But yeah... I know where my place is...
All i can do is pray and wish that you see me as me again....
It was hurt when lately you start make me as punchbag, even it was just your word.
I am human too... have a jealousy and need to be love.
Maybe now you start seeing me as nothing, because no matter how hard I try.... All i feel is a great pain than love....

Now I really wish things turn out like before.... when we first met... :(

the heart that hurt

Is it wrong when I didn't ask much about everything?
I'm just hoping that you realize that everything that i do to you is really from me and i'm not asking much from you...
just want to own your heart and you own mine.
Never want to share you with someone else, never want to cry seeing you smile with other and you let out your pain with me...
i do want to be with you, no matter what, but why some people just love to throw someone that really care for them and take the one that hurt them?
People never appreciate what they got... till it's really gone...
I wish you appreciate me.. cuz i do appreciate you as you are.. not as you think i want you to be

I don't want to walk alone

I don't want to be alone

I don't think I can sleep on my own

And I don't think I can breath on my own....

Without your love....

Only your love making me possible to live...

I love you...

5/6/2010

The Best Love Quotes

When I saw you I was afraid to meet you.

When I met you I was afraid to kiss you.

When I kissed you I was afraid to love you.

Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.

As we grow older together,

As we continue to change with age,

There is one thing that will never change. . .

I will always keep falling in love with you

To the world you are one person, but to one person you are the world.

And if it all falls apart,

I will know deep in my heart,

the only dream that mattered had come true.

In this life, I was loved by you.

The best thing about me is you

http://mimosalady.blogspot.com/2009/06/me-blabberingat-midnight-so-blue.html

How i really wish that i did not meet the same things again... but it seem it happen once again... It begin with my foolishness that think I am strong enough... but it seem I fail again in this lesson of my life...I always fail in my love lesson... and friendship too...but at least I'm glad that i have a few people that i can count too... Thanks to you my real friend.

But I really grateful that I didn't lose all the love that I gain hard to have... and I am grateful the man that I love is still by my side... and loving me like before... I just want to spend my life with him till my last breath on earth... because he is my first love that I had and I want him to be the last...

I love you.... more than this 3 words can say.. Mi Amor

This is how i feel right now...

"I`m going to smile and make you think I`m happy, I`m going to laugh, so you don`t see me cry, I`m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me- I`m going to smile."

Because I never really had you at all, I didn't think it would hurt this much to lose you

They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don`t come back.

COMBINE ALL 3 AND SEE WHAT MY HEART CAN BE...:(

This one make me smile... and cry....

Yeah... I'm in love but hell i feel so uncertain..I think my dream is going to crush. My heart is in pain and nobody going to hear it. but so truly, i'm so in love... In love with a guns.. and when the time is come... my head will blow up till there is nothing left.

I start to feel that I'm just a bitch, that hoping a love like in fairytale without realize it's will just fade away and never come true.

Who will listen to me?

Yea... I'm Happy...

It's been a month I am in this condition that called LOVE. And yea, I'm happy for it and yeah I cherish every second of it. I never feel so happy in my life.. and I'm ready for the next stage of this relationship and want to be in it till the day we die...

It just growing for a month and 1 weeks.. and i want it to be forever...

Mi Amor... I love you with every beat of my heart... :)

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly

Lonely Valentine's

Wishing my self Happy Valentine's Day for the gazillion times is nothing new to me. But for this year, I'm waiting for the miracles happen but it seem nothing working out.

Waiting for a call from someone that I fall into is so hard. I can't believe that I'm staring my phone all day just waiting if someone will call me to ask me out or maybe just say like "hey... Happy valentine's day, ok?" then just hang up the phone.I think it will be enough to making me smile.

But I think, it will be just another hope that I will keep dreaming on and never will come true. But still, I will wait for such call even it was from someone else.... still I keep hoping it is him...

Happy Valentine's Day....

EarCandy#30

Toploader- Dancing in the moonlight.

Valentine's Day is tomorrow. Even I am not the one that celebrate (which is for some reason, I don't really care) but still I love to share my fave song to play when I feel romantic. This is one of the song... I love the playful moods in it and this song is making me smile. It was really good to have such a song that kind of romantic and at the same time seem so playful.

So what are the plans for Valentine's? I think I goes with nothing....hmm

But anyway... Happy Valentine's Day... and cherish the day ok?

And uh... happy chinese new year too... It fall accidentally tomorrow...too.. great huh?

Love - a terribly misunderstood emotion, although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker.

EarCandy#29

I just found out this songs few days ago...


So Contagious-Acceptance

This one from the unknown and never again exist band Acceptance and from their only album Phantom. This song is beautifully written and I just fall in love with it after listening for the first time. This is how I feel right now for someone who I still hanging on for hope. But I think, it does not mean anything anymore. I should move on and breath a new air instead sitting there and thinking like I'm nothing.

That's all... enjoy your weekend.

The rain pouring so hard
And I'm drenched out
I'm standing here
Waiting for no one
To come and take me
To the shelter
Why it must be now?
You sinking me down
So far deeply into the ground
And I'm drowning
In my own floods of tear
And I guess no one can hear me
After all the storm that you make
Because,
I'm so deeply buried
And nobody can hear or see me.

11/11/2003

EarCandy#28

This piece is so catchy...


Angels and Airwaves-Secret Crowds

I love this song as it really related every words used in wars to be something that related to peace. I think it is cool, and I'm in love with the chorus.... Just wishing I can hear more songs that awesome-ly written like this.

And yes Earcandy will be on saturday.... and will keep on giving you a great song every week. I think that's all. I want to have a pleasure of having a lazy-me in rainy day.. :)

Have a good weekend!

We <3 Waterworld!!! ( the vids)

It is great to see the picture, but more amazing when we can watch a video. So now I'm presenting a video of my classmates.. in waterworld of course proudly recorded by me.I'm just a camera guy (should say camera girl) but hey... who cares? I just love to expand my love as videographer!!!! Sorry for the quality, I was using my phone. Not give much thought of being too serious.

So? here we go,





And there is another....




Which one is the cool one? Let me know.... :)
Will be the other camera guy if needed....Totally.

Movie Blab....

OK, I have watch so much movie last year, and earlier this year. Which most of the movie that I watch is good to watch and there a few that flunk. Can't complaining though...

But today, not going to discuss which movie is good and which one is flunk. Just love to have a talk of this particular movie.

Paranormal Activity.

Uh, I'm a fan of horror movie, which keep my adrenaline rush and it is fun when we try to keep composure and our cool while we watching it. It was to prevent ourselves from screaming.. Ha ha... sound stupid. Ok let's move on to my thought about Paranormal Activity.

I think this is the most successful indie-movie/reality-related movie after Blair Witch Project that make us believe 'uh, it's a real one' but turn out to be a complete hoax with the intention to make us entertaining.

Well, cannot deny that it gloriously making me shiver. And it seems real, which making this movie a little bit better than Blair Witch Project. And the bedroom footage is totally winning, because it brought more tension than the camera running around like crazy. Brought an eerie feelings, and making us wonder what is next.

Still not a flunk movie, I give one thumb up for successfully scared my sister. And one thumb down for a cliche phenomenon that I always hear, see, when watching a few ghost reality tv show. I'm not a big fan of reality tv but it was fun to see people making face in it.

Hmm... I think my words is kind of jumble up this time. And I'm not sure what am I blabbing. I guess I better stop now.

Watch a good movie, hear a good music, and read a good books.

Hello 2010!

I know that it is pretty late, but still we are in January, so the new year mood is still on. Just like every year that begun, there should be a resolution that we make and try to achieve in a whole year.

But not going to talk about resolution because it was so bore, I did not believe in making once in a year resolution.I am more to everyday resolution which is good and more effective (which will be the next things to talk about but not in here). I just want to revive my 2009, which I think the best year I ever had in my life. Let see if we can do a fairytale with it.

After struggling with a loss of my both parents, I wake up as the new person... uh ok swap that.... sound so dramatic. I try to living my life, I seek for every opportunities that will make me feel like I'm a worthy person o live in this world. Well it is hard for me first, because I am a totally reserved and seclude person so I got nothing much in this totally challenging world.

Not till a very nice text message, from my friend telling me that I should to take this certificate in a college where she is studying. And I was like, "Hell Yeah! another study moment? Come on I learn so much about my life right now. It's not like that I will stand a chance?"

But I keep thinking for a whole day. If I did not take a shot, when will I do it. So I just go and to make this crazy long story short. I made it! I become a student (again) but learning a new things (it is culinary, my dear), and new challenge, and having a new friends! And also learning that everything is not so easy as it looks.

But yeah, I love learning a new things and I love my new life that giving me a new perspective. And I push my limits too. It is good feeling free.... So that is why 2009 is become the greatest year to me. Thanks to everyone that be there for me...

Hoping that 2010 will bring a spark too. I just want to have a pretty good time of my life and having something to tell later in my oldie life... And uh, yes I will try to spend my time here in my blog... I'm missing it because I'm eaten by busy bug :(
any way....

Have a Full Blast 2010 everyone!!!!